So, here I sit. On this page. Stuck.
I cannot read past this page. I have, but I can’t seem to do it again. Because I know what lies beyond.
If you are reading the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon and have not yet read The Fiery Cross
DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER! – seriously, you will hate yourself and probably me too.
Yes I know every woman who reads these books falls in love with Jamie – who wouldn’t, he’s a myth. But I adore Roger, I prefer him. In my mind he’s a combo of young Graham Nash and Ben Taylor – with Ben’s voice.
That said. I am on my second read through of the series and I can’t read past this page.
I adore Roger.
As pissed off as I was when the door at Lallybroch opened and Loaghaire was standing there I was livid and heartbroken when Roger was hanged. As much as I feel for these characters and care for them I sobbed and sobbed but it was only the second time in the series that I actually cried – the first being when Jamie falls apart in Claire’s lap after seeing pictures of Bree. I was so hurt. It took a considerable amount of reassuring myself that I could trust the author to get me to go back and continue reading – and glad I am that I did.
I know that whats going to happen isn’t on the next page, I know he still has to go talk to Herman Husband and run into Morag and get caught by William but I can’t get his hanging out of my head and I hate it! I don’t want to go read anything else but I can’t move forward with this story.
So I’ll try to read this page again (the 4th time) tonight after the girls go to bed and see if I can keep going. I have a very full weekend with birthday parties and soccer games and other social engagements so if I don’t get to read through my blockade till Monday, I won’t be too hard on myself.
At least I know that there is still plenty of Roger beyond that page, I’ll comfort myself with that.